SPARK

Well today I went to my friend Ara's mum's 50th birthday.
And it was pretty fun, because of the great company.

Unexpected, got the better of me like seriously. I don't know if it's just me but there was a spark tonight. I bet I could read exactly what everyone was thinking when they saw. But I got to say she got me smiling, like an actual smile. Not one of the fake ones i usually pull off to hide behind, an actual smile like when little kids/babies give you a smile and you can't help but smile too. It was that kind of smile.
And talking to her for the whole night put me in utter contentment.

Well out of this i just wanna say that she brought out an utter contentment out of me, just have to see where this will take me, for the better i hope.

Shoot the moon...

You don't wanna hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware that I'm tearing you asunder.

What is right and what is wrong...

to decide...

STOP

 

I believe that now is the time I'm going to stop being the nice little shit that I am and unleash the evil in me. Fuck everyone, everything and who ever because nobody FUCKING cares a shit about a little insignificant person. FUCK my heart, Fuck my image everyone sees me..

 nice turns bad with a blink of an eye...

Game Over.

 

Feels like I'm on the verge of losing everything...